And HOW beautiful? (And yes, back in 1988 - I think it was - I had the Sinead haircut too).
It took me ten years to put on three stone - that's 42 pounds.
And during that whole time, that whole ten years, I therefore wasn't being my best self. I just wasn't.
It was there in the back of my mind all the time in the earlier stages. A bit uncomfortable. A bit thinking the 'right dress' would fix it.
By the end, I was only wearing clothes that 'fitted' because - to me - nothing looked good.
I was actually struggling to breathe easily while bent over doing my shoes up.
I was unhappy with my body and my weight.
For TEN years. For a decade.
And for the record, this body did nothing wrong. It was strong. It never got ill. I abused it, not it me - and that was nagging at me too.
Yeah, constitution of an ox here - but now making my poor body work so hard to work well (and it did) with all this extra weight? I felt guilty too.
And then this year, April this year - well, I decided to stop whispering around about pretending I was ok with it, pretending I might start some dull bland diet I was NEVER really going to start .. and ROAR.
Quietly and elegantly if possible.
But take back control for sure.
With the powerful ease of a lioness.
I am a lioness.
Strong, sociable, powerful and protective and I WILL FIGHT when needed.
So I stood up and fought.
To get my body back.
More than that - to get my control back. Control of my own body and life. Control of my strength and flexibility.
And of my happiness.
It took ten years to put it on, sad pound by heavy, reducing, quieting sad pound.
It's taken six months to release most of that weight back into the wild and stride into being the lioness I am.
I have more to go. I have more to learn.
But putting my lioness on .. that's good. I don't want to take her off again.
Oh and I won't again this time.
This time I'm tracking and keeping aware and doing all the things i've done following my Tiniest Thai Diet.
The lioness is now me. Or I am now she.
We are stronger, lither, lighter.
More hunter and yet also more protective. Able to move more freely.
More us. More me.
I am so happy to have become feeling ME again from losing weight that I can't stop sharing and talking about it. And others have been joining the Thai Diet Revolution now too - which makes me even happier!