“If you change nothing, nothing will change”
And that moment of realisation, that moment where you finally feel it and KNOW that it is YOUR decision to create your life and make it happen ...
It happened to me four years ago this month. 28th April.
I was in a very dark place, looking back, in a job I knew was terrible for me ... and harming me ... but it was really ME harming me allowing it to continue.
And I'd been letting life drift by really my whole life - choosing A over B, like a multiple choice life, NEVER and I mean NEVER really deciding what I wanted and what would make me happy and going after that.
It took until my 40's.
it doesn't matter how long it takes, it matters that one day you DO see, do feel, do know that it's ALL and ALWAYS down to you.
YES, there are pressures and challenges of life, but THE biggest step is deciding.
What I did that day, was finally say enough. I gave in my notice at the awful job - without a job to go to - and suddenly felt my long long long ago ebbed away ME power start returning.
Of COURSE I could find another job perfect for me and my career in three months (it took four weeks).
And this time I made sure it was right for me and also would allow me time, mental capacity ... to start writing, cooking more, launching my own things I'm passionate about, my own side passion projects.
It can be so easy not to even recognise that you're in a dark place and going through the motions, getting through each day, surviving basically.
I was someone who on paper looked like I had a good life - and I did ... but I was trapped and miserable and not growing, not CREATING.
You can always decide and choose.
(You don't have to give your notice in though) :)
But it is your one life and if you've been stuck for a while and this sounds like you ... maybe start thinking what YOU want.
For me ... I wanted not to be scared, ill, bullied, tired, weak.
I wanted to write and create (and be me and be strong).
It didn't LOOK big to anyone else!
To the outside it looked like I left one great job in a great industry and went to another. Oh and started a little blog about Thai cooking.
That little blog about Thai food made me alive again and got my creativity going again. That first day, on my first blog site, pressing 'publish' - no post is scarier than that one.
I was still living in a fear mode really, worrying what people would think or say, not having the incredible community and support I do now.
You CAN start creating your life at ANY time in your life.
The big thing, the only big thing ... is DECIDING.
And that 'little' project?
Could become your real BIG thing, your biggest thing.
What do YOU want to do, create ... be?